the 'A's have finally
come to a merciful end,
and altho The End doesnt
feel as ecstatic as i'd imagined,
i am relieved.

i am relieved that at least,
a segment of my sorrows
can be temporarily shelved
(fate is sealed.)
and i can now focus on dealing
with the others.

life wouldnt let me get
away as easily as most
people get to,
but its okay because i
dont intend to be intimidated.

By Murphy's First Law,
if anything can go wrong, it will.

and it does.

seem to hold true
especially in the context of
the jiesin world.

but much as im tempted to
proclaim that all of this
world's injustices are befalling
on me,
i guess i need
to also give some
credit to life, the
same bloody perpetuator of my
woes,
for ultimately always deciding
to be merciful.

so even tho i wont get
to do what the rest of the world would
probably be doing now,
i know my priority now
is to be a worthy enough
member of the family,
and of course,
all i want for christmas
is a good ol' functioning mom.